Right now I'm chillen out listening to some radiohead...its pretty peaceful
I set a new sleeping record today, 12:56. Its not impressive but I definately don't wanna make it a habit, especially since sleeping too much makes you feel like crap the rest of the day.mmm...
I've had the same clarinet lesson 3 weeks in a row now, which would make you think I would be trying more, but I am not getting anywhere because I suck at the music because I don't like the music in the first place. And I pissed Steve off in the meanwhile, because I couldn't tongue correctly, and he expected me to do so just from some stupid song...
But I'm pissed as well. I think I practice enough and need some other direction, not some gay ass song that discourages me for 3 weeks that hasn't helped me yet.
And so their are 2 people that make me feel happy. chemistry is wonderful.
Questioning my friendship with one of my best friends I have no emotional connection with, I know we need eachother. I usually can't be friends with people if I don't feel anything for them, but this is an unusual case where I know I'm needed...it feels good to lead someone, and for some reason we'd be lost without eachother. It's like an exchange of needs, keeping eachother sane with no personal involvement but contribution. We do so much together without growing. It's like "okay thanks, bye. lets' do something tomorrow" "fine with me bye" That's how it feels.
Waste of time? Maybe. It's more sad than anything.